After being angry for a bit about the situation, I decided that I would instead focus on things that I loved such as taking an online course that I always wanted to take. Being able to catch up on my reading or being able to sit and enjoy my morning coffee without having to rush off to a 45 minute commute to work. And most importantly, I learned to appreciate my husband for never missing an appointment and always being there for me. I know our first year of marriage due to what we had to go through was not a super fun adventure but I learned to appreciate it as an adventure where I saw how much he cares about me and I felt so at peace knowing he would take care of me in the best way possible for the rest of our life together. Maybe if we hadn’t gone through this, that realization may have taken years to sink in but once I started to focus on all the positive things in our lives, the idea recovering for 6 weeks and maybe then finding out if I have to have the surgery a second time…doesn’t seem so scary.

I used to freak out when I would go to see the doctor and from all the tests and get all caught up in how upsetting it was but this past week I was the only person waiting to have my surgery with a smile on my face. I was grateful that I was able to have the surgery and hope for the best but what kept me smiling was that my husband would be there for me and take care of me and things didn’t seem so scary anymore.
I live in Canada and as much as I would love to win the book, I was a bit sad to see I didn’t qualify but I wanted to post anyway because I can completely relate to the story in a way that just over a year ago I couldn’t.